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6.29.2012

Trying to See Past my Weight Loss Roadblock

Lets have a chat shall we?
I'm almost positive that this post will benefit ME more than most of you, but nonetheless, it's happening...and I feel like a "woe is me" rant is acceptable now and then. (I'll pretend you're nodding and agreeing along with me).
 You know how I always try to look on the bright side, stay positive and put some kind of "good vibe" out in the world with every post? Well... (just a heads up) this post isn't going to have any of that.

I. Am. So. TIRED.

Then go take a nap you say? Nah, it's not one of THOSE kind of tired's (although a nap does sound wonderful)... it's more of a feeling, or state of mind. Examples?...

I'm SO tired of:
Paying bills
Cleaning the house
Working out
Eating healthy
Whiny, sassy kids
Spending oodles of money on gas
Doing laundry
Half finished projects
Shopping for: toilet paper, paper towels, eggs, milk, cheese, tortillas and bread EVERY other week.
Keeping up the yard
Sitting at my computer
Vacuuming basically an entire meal crumbs out of the bottom of my car each Saturday
Dusting
Church
School
Work
MY FOOT HURTING!


Okay, so no matter how much money, love or blessings we have in life, we ALL get tired of at least a few of these things, right? So let's get down to the root of my problem here. My foot hurts. It hurts BAD. Like, shooting pain every time I walk, had to crawl on my knees to the kitchen the other day, hobbling along like a weirdo in Costco because it was too painful to walk 'normal'... kinda hurting. And when you're in constant pain and can't walk well, EVERYTHING else seems to be 100 times harder and more time consuming.

You'd think after birthing 3 babies that I'd have a higher pain tolerance for a crazy-bad case of plantar fasciitis, a bone spur and some stretched/possibly snapped tendons eh?
Well... I'm here to tell you, I DO NOT. All of a sudden I catch myself begging for the few hours of labor I had to experience, over this constant throbbing and aching in my stupid right foot.

Yes, I've been to a specialist, yes, I'm going to get a second opinion. I'm doing all I can. I'm pretty sure that my liver is going to fall out from all the ibuprofen I've taken, before my foot actually starts feeling better. Thank goodness for essential oils that give me SOME kind of relief, especially at night. (I've been using lemon and deep blue)
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Okay, WHEW! That was a lot of *itching and moaning. Now let's really talk about why I'm so sad/angry/depressed/tired
(here come the waterworks)

I CAN'T WORK OUT and it's driving me mad!

Before anyone comments and says it... I know, I know. I can swim, I can try a stationary bike, I can still lift weights if I'm careful to not put too much pressure on my foot. yadda yadda yadda

But for some crazy reason, I'm craving the feeling I get when I am able to RUN! The weirdest part is that I HATE running, because I can't do it for very long, and I'm not good at it. To be honest, I've caught a few glimpses of myself in the mirror while ON the treadmill and in fact, I closely resemble an uncooked whole chicken wobbling back and forth from side to side when I'm jogging.
That being said, I still want to do it! The high that I feel after a really GREAT workout is what was keeping me going. Motivating me to choose the right foods during the day, and to get excited for weighing in on Friday mornings.
But now, I've lost "the high"... and I'm feeling super low.

Case in point:
Yes, it's 6 m&m's... to YOU. But to me, it's the first sign that I'm starting to give up, because something is getting in my way, and when it comes to weight loss, and giving up... well, let's just say I'm sort of an expert.
:(

You say: "BUT SHELLEY! You've lost 60+ pounds! You can't give up now!"

Don't worry, I'm not. That's why I'm putting myself completely out there right now and telling you the TRUTH about how I'm really feeling...and also so you can hold me accountable. ha! I've shared the good news, the before and afters, motivated everyone with great quotes, but today, I'm just... tired.
It's been almost 8 months of diet and exercise, and the "fat girl voice" inside of me is louder than EVER. Telling me that she knew I'd never be able to do it, and that eventually she KNEW something would stop me or stand in my way. Up until about 3 weeks ago I could silence her pretty well with a kick ass workout, but today, that's not an option.

I had this conversation with Cason the other night while we were up late working. I was down in my office, and he was upstairs on his laptop. He is studying for a big test and is worried about not passing. We always try to stay positive, so he mentioned he was trying to find his "happy thoughts", and then asked me where I was with my work, how I was doing, and what my happy thought was. My reply?...

It's so amazing to me how HARD it is to keep going, and how EASY it is to give up when you're trying to overcome or accomplish something really difficult in your life. I know I said no quotes... but for some reason, at this point in my journey, I can't stop thinking about this one from a post I wrote earlier.
I'm well aware that MY trial may sound a bit trivial to most. And that's okay. I get it..."It's ONLY fat"... but we all know it goes deeper than that, and JUST as I was starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, suddenly I have to stop for a little while. aaaarrrrggg!

This was my email to Cason a few days ago:
Hey babe,
Okay, so I cried today when I put these two side by side. (what!? me crying over my weight? shocker!)
I don't want to be that really fat girl again. I LOVE how I'm looking/feeling, and the girl in the gray shirt makes me so sad. Whada' say... should I just chop my foot off? I bet I'd lose a few more pounds :)

Maybe it was ironic, maybe it was a sign, but the next day, this is what arrived on my front porch.

By now you all know how much music motivates me while working out. Well, so does my sweet husband. A few weeks ago I told him that the headphones I'd been using were starting to fall apart. The sound was still great, but the padding on the earpieces were starting to rip and tear, which hurt my ears. I can't wear ear buds, because apparently my ears are too small/weird shaped/not made for them, so I've always preferred the full-on headphones to workout with (even if I DO look like a nerd). Now anyone who knows Cason at all, knows that he's OBSESSED with surprises, presents and well... just giving in general. Definitely not a bad trait to have in a husband, I must admit ;) That being said, with a bunch of online credits, some discounts and even a coupon code, he managed to snag me these crazy-AMAZING new Beats by Dr. Dre. It was a complete surprise to me, and I went into a full-on ugly cry when I opened the box, after having a particularly hard day with my stupid foot and a series of dead-end doctors appointments.

Another thing you have to know about my adorable guy and all-time best friend, is that he has got to be one of THE MOST supportive husbands around (I'm sure you've figured this out by now). From the home projects, to the blog... he's nothing short of completely amazing. My weight loss journey has been especially trying on my emotions this past year and without fail, he has been right there... letting me yell to him about how frustrated I am, cry on his shoulder, or jumping up and down with me looking like compelete idiots when I lose more than 2 pounds in a week. Mostly, I do all the dramatics, and he's more of a silent supporter... knowing that just BEING THERE for me is what I need the most from him; reminding me all the time, with his laid back, carefree attitude...
"Psshh, you've GOT this babe!"

Do I this time though? Do I have what it takes to KEEP going, even when it feels like something really hard is being piled on top of something that already seems impossible?

Again, this post is definitely more therapeutic for me, being now that I have all of these crazy thoughts and feelings off my chest, and I hope you truly understand that in NO WAY is this an attempt to get a few sympathy comments or an inbox full of motivational weight loss advice; merely a reality check that this whole "losing LOTS of weight stuff" is SO hard, emotional, time consuming, and tiring. And I think it's just as important, if I've gone this far to put my story out there for all of our blogging friends to read, that it's only fair to share the good, the bad and... the truth, about how I feel at this point in my journey.

I'm sure things will look a lot differently in 2 weeks or so (crossing my fingers), and I'll be back at it with my good ol' workout routine, but for now... I'm just gonna go lay in my bed, put my foot in a sexy ankle brace, mindlessly wander around Pinterest while watching the last episode of the Batchelorette, and call it the official start of my weekend.

272 comments:

  1. Ideal feet foot inserts and a new pair of shoes worked wonders for my intense heel pain! 5 weeks and $500 later my heel feels much better and I start my boot camp again next week!

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  2. hi shelley. my husband and both have run for years along with other things, but he has had p.f. for as long as i have known him. he got orthotics right away, and has NO problems at all. they can get pricey 400+, but as i said never has any problems except for the times he has had to send them away to be fixed or replaced (usually takes 1 ish wk). so... unless you have already done this, go see a podiatrist! let me know how it turns out. although, i will probably know because i read your blog daily! kaley

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  3. I couldnt written this myself, except for the hurting foot. Dont eat those m&ms, if you are like me, it will lead to more and more, then well Ive eaten this junk today, why not have some more, etc etc. You look great and have accomplished alot! You will be back to running soon. Love the hip earphones!

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  4. Sorry you're having foot troubles! Ive been plagued with plantar fasciitis for years. The one thing that gets rid of it is the Strassburg sock! Seriously, if I feel plantar coming on I only have to wear it one night and it's gone. It's $50 WELL spent. I highly recommend trying it!

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  5. Congratulations on your weight loss! I need to follow your example. I had the same thing with my foot a few years ago and a friend told me to push my foot back toward my leg (the front). You can also do exercises like standing on the edge of a book and going down to the floor and back up. These exercises stretch the back leg muscle. I also found that wearing good arches in my shoes helped a LOT. Put ice on it, too. You have probably already tried all these things, but I did find relief when I started doing them. Another friend had to wear a boot to sleep in that kept her foot pushed up (not pointed). Good luck. I know it is painful!

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  6. Shelley,
    I HEAR YOU! I am tired the same way, the same things. I have lost 50 pounds, and nothing in the last 6 weeks. I am still quite healthy, but i have to remind my self of the progress, and also look at pictures to remind myself that what i'm doing is amazing!

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  7. I wanted to tell you that I suffered from plantar fascitis for over a year... it was SO painful. I tried rolling my foot on a can, massaging it, etc. I finally went to the dr and he told me to buy inserts for my shoes ... inserts that cost about $20. Made by Spenco. I had to ask around which one in particular I had to get. ANYWAYS, after a few days of wearing them (you wear them in your tennis shoes, and trust me, you really don't want to wear anything other than your tennis shoes), and feeling like I'm walking SO oddly, it WORKED! It took awhile to recover, but it's been a year now and the pain is gone!

    I hope that's all it is, and not a stress fracture in any way! Keep up the good work! Oh... and can you really clue us in on your eating?! What are you eating??? My problem isn't so much the working out, it's the EATING!!

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  8. To say i understand where you are coming from may sound trite, but I do. Last year I had mostly the same foot issues, my "Plaxico Buerres", don't ask :) It had me stopped, add to that a pre Diabetic diagnosis (which they said "work out 30 minutes a day" if you cant walk ride a bike, or swim). Add in 3 kids, life and a booming bath and body business, that I was on my feet 8-10 hours a day for. Now that I justified understanding, I want you to know that even at your bleakest time right now, you are INSPIRING! Don't underestimate how being you can inspire. To see that you still live your life daily, continue to smile and find even a twinge of happiness, is inspiring! Keep on, keeping on.
    It's kinda crazy but you have inspired me to take my medication, for my thyroid and diabetes-not for crazy stuff :)For me, taking my meds is the first step in changing my life for the better, thank you for making life real, even though it's not fun right now. PS I loved Cason's tutorial on the vinyl flooring strips from Lowes, we are so on that for our bathroom. I've been searching for ways to update our old, ugly sticky tiles on a budget and those are perfect! Virtual hugs!

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  9. You're right, losing weight is HARD and it's much more than just a physical journey. You look ah-mazing and we all have those down times. Know that we're rooting for you!

    PS Small eared girls unite! I know your troubles, sista ;)

    PPS Have you tried acupuncture? I've never done it myself but my sister had a similar issue with her foot and she was getting steroid shots in her foot and it wasn't improving and she went to a well recommended acupuncturist and walked out with a foot that was already less swollen. She did 3 treatments and was able to go back to running. It's worth a shot maybe?

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  10. Hugs! That is SO hard! And, being in constant pain is awful!!! :( Would swimming be an option for you? Seems like it might be a way to at least get a little work out high without weight bearing on your foot.
    Hope you get some answers soon & your foot starts feeling better! Good luck!

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  11. You go girl! I feel a BUNCH of all that you said above. You are not alone! Hope that helps you!

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  12. Shelley! My heart just breaks for you. I completely know what you're going through. I was on a workout high for a long time... I had finally gotten over the beginning stages of running hurdle (and that's a TOUGH hurdle to jump!). And then I got pneumonia... and then I found out I had to have surgery. Threw a wrench into that high! I just had to tell myself that i WOULD get that high back. I WOULD get healthy again. And in the meantime, I just had to eat the best I could (without going crazy) and keep faith that this wasn't forever. Get 1 or 2 opinions on your foot. Take care of it as quickly as possible so you can get back to your exercise routine sooner rather than later.
    Hang in their Shelley! It's not forever. Keep your spirit!

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  13. i love the final picture of you and pinterest - that is exactly what i'm doing to prep for my new home and decorating - i hope you have a speedy recovery! hang in there you lost so much weight - and you look brilliant -

    i'm trying to lose 10lbs - and a spinning addict at the moment!

    -See
    www.apuravida.com

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  14. hang in there, Shelley. this is just a test, but you are stronger than just this foot issue--you're working for something greater and whatever sacrifices you have to make now are totally worth it. the example you're setting for your daughters will affect them for years to come and the honor you're giving to God by taking care of the body he gave you will be rewarded. you can do it!

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  15. I know it wasn't your intent, but this post made me weep. WEEP. I'm following a similar journey. I've hit a road block that I'm struggling to overcome, and you made me feel not so alone. I am so right there with you, lady. RIGHT. THERE. But I believe in you. And I believe in me, too. Thank you for this post. It was a gift. *wiping away the tears*

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  16. From experience I know PF really stinks!! Hang in there because you are an AMAZING you!

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  17. I have been exactly where you are right now. The pain is different than any other pain I have ever experienced and it seemed to go on forever. When I injured my foot, I almost fainted in the middle of a busy street and hobbled home in tears after getting my daughter from soccer practice across the street from our house. I couldn't work out and it made me crazy. I never thought I would be the type to actually crave working out 3 times a week and walking (I walked 4 km a day taking my daughter to and from school), but I did. I did feel sorry for myself and had a pity party but, then I did work out doing what I could just so I wouldn't get out of the habit. I used a workout ball and found I could do weights and crunches without putting too much pressure on my foot.

    Working out is a habit and if you don't keep at it, you get out of shape in a hurry. Then it is easy to just give up and before you know it, you are back where you started. It also helps with mood swings.

    So here is my advice. Have a pity party for one day, then work out doing what you can, get treatment for your foot and enjoy the summer with your family because it is always too short.

    Sending healing vibes to you and wishing you a speedy recovery.

    Kathy

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  18. A very good friend of mine was severely over weight - he lost 100 lbs in less than a year, and was still 115 from is goal of 220! He struggles, he has issues with his feet from his weight, and it hurts my heart so much when he gets down on himself. Your post had the same affect. It's a struggle, it's exhausting (physically, emotionally, mentally financially) - but you have come so far and were so dedicated! And that is A LOT to be proud of! Don't get down on yourself - injuries happen, and if you can't run/walk, then find something you can control like your diet, or doing floor routines (yoga is surprisingly great for weight loss!).

    I have hope for you, and I (as a reader who never leaves comments) have been so proud and inspired by your progress. Rest up, because you will be getting back into it with full force soon! :)

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  19. A few years back my Mom had the same problem on one of her feet and nothing seemed to work for her. Until someone told her to use an old wine bottle, fill it with warm/hot water and roll it with her foot for a few minutes a day. Worked like a charm!! Good luck and I hope you start feeling better soon, :)

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  20. Hang in there. I've also had the owie right foot and you might try flexing it for a few minutes before you get up in the morning. I found it really helped with that awful pain.
    As for fat girl voice...she is just jealous.
    Hang in there
    :0)

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  21. So sorry about your foot. I have the exact same problem. The plantar facitis is the worst. Pain all the time. I can't even walk bare foot anymore. Exercise makes mine fell better for about 1 hour then I am back to constant pain. Ugly tennis shoes all day. I think they should do foot transplants. Until then enjoy those hot new little headphones. What a sweet hubby you have. You are not alone.
    Adrienne
    www.freetimefrolics.com

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  22. I was so needing this post right now. I feel like if there was a contest for "most crabby and defeated" I would win hands down and begrudgingly take me awards with an "eh whatever". I have done the weight lost journey SO many times, losing and gaining 80-100 lbs each time. I am at the top again, really trying to find the motivation to start "all over again". But, let me tell you, I am inspired by this post and what you have accomplished. It's not always about skipping through the journey happy go lucky with no hiccups. There are these real moments, sometimes more often than not. The fact that you are owning it and pushing through it is very empowering. You have a fan in me. I just need to find the same strength. Much love!

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  23. I have never commented on your blog before though I have enjoyed it for quite some time. I really hope you are able to push through this tough spot. I lost about 70 pounds two years ago but was not able to maintain it. It feels HORRIBLE to be back to my starting weight!!! To know that you are putting yourself in a prison is an insane kind of hell. Prayers for you to remain free!

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  24. Ah Shelley!! Hang in there. You are doing so stinkin' amazing. It's ok to have a bad day, week or even month as long as you keep on trying- which you are!!! Hugs to you!

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  25. Hey sweet friend I have never met!! I read your blog very often and enjoy it so much. I have been watching and cheering you on with your weight loss and wishing I were as dedicated as you with the exercise. Anyway, when I read your post tonite, I knew I just had to let you know about a treatment I have used multiple times for bone spur/plantar faciatis. Several years ago, I was introduced to therapeutic magnets as a treatment for this. I have seen these on line. Not sure is I remember the name of the company, I will research this tomorrow and let you know, but the ones I have used a very tiny little round flat magnets about 3/16th in width. You tape them on the bottom of your foot right where it hurts most. I have recommended these to several people who had have similar results as me. When I first put it on and walked across the room, my pain was immediately cut in half!! Not gone completely, but bearable and they made it possible for me to function in an almost normal way. I do feel they sped up the healing process as well. They allow more blood to circulate in the inflamed areas, which cuts down on the pain. Just a thought and something that would not hurt to try. Not everyone I have recommended these to has had the same results as me, but it is a low cost treatment and so worth a try for the agony you are in. I have been there for sure. Hope maybe you could be helped also. Hang in there and don't lose heart. You will overcome this obstacle as well. Keep the faith!!

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  26. Oh my goodness! Your progress is amazing and inspiring!

    Heal soon you stinkin' heel!

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  27. Hang in there! You made it this far, and you'll make it the rest of the way - this is just a bump in the trail!

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  28. Shelly, you don't need pity! You need motivation!
    Dig deep within you and find that mojo again!!!

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  29. Thanks for sharing the good, the bad, and the ugly! You've got what it takes. In the meantime, enjoy Pinterest and some well-deserved rest!

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  30. The Trigger Point! Ya gotta get it, it will help immensely. All you need is the starter set and you can Google how to use it for plantar fasciitis, don't bother with the DVD :)

    http://tptherapy.com/shop/all-tppt-products/tp-starter-set.html

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  31. You are so allowed to have your whah-whah moment! We all do! You really have been on an amazing journey and you don't need anyone to tell you that, because you've fought hard for it each and every day. My husband is plagued with planter fascitis and so I can sympathize with you. Custom orthotics and biweekly massages have him able to function, but still not pain free. Best of luck to you sweetie! Hold your head up!

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  32. Well, you admitting a truth means I should admit a truth too... I may not struggle with weight, but I struggle with depression. And while some people may look at your weight struggle as "insignificant," it's not. You are a treasure. You are a child of God. You are fighting a battle against the devil who tells you every day that you can not succeed. You are doing everything you can to give the devil the boot and inspiring thousands along with way. We all have all struggles. Yours is important. You are amazing (even if you are not working out every day).

    YOU can do all things through Christ (Phil. 4:13)
    YOU are loved with an everlasting love (Jer. 31:3).
    YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made (Ps. 139:14).

    May the healing hand of God fix your foot and clear your minds of all those voices telling you "You can't."

    Sending you endless love from a sister in Christ.

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  33. Shelley! I have had HORRIBLE problems with the dreaded plantar fasciitis too. I was taking scary amounts of ibuprofen just to make it through my day and though the pain was only nagging if I kept moving - if I stopped, sat down, laid down, slept the next time I stood up was agonizing. UNTIL - my dad - who totally still treats me like his baby - bought me these shoe inserts that have changed my life - I immediately threw out all the inserts that came with my shoes and started wearing ONLY sneakers as much as I could - even in the house. I have to tell you I went from practically crying every time and limping which caused all other sorts of problems to being able to function within two weeks of wearing my sneaks with them in as much as possible. Maybe ask a doc about them - and hang in there!!!

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  34. Such a sweet gal with a sweet husband! You CAN do it. Those M&Ms aren't a sign of failure, I see it as a sign that you will have self control for the rest of your life. Let's face it...you're not going to NEVER have M&Ms again! So at least you have the control to only eat a few!! Do you have crutches? Could you do some sort of silly crutches work-out? Those things are hard on your arms/abs! Keep on keepin' on, we all believe in you.

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  35. I had horrible plantar fasciitis as a young mother - it was excruciating! What helped me the most was wearing Birkenstock shoes... the trick was to never, ever, ever walk with out them - and I mean not even in the middle of the night just to pee! I have an "indoor" pair that are my slippers still today. Later on, Crocs were pretty good too, but nothing beats my birkis. They are ugly as sin, but thanks to them, I can now cheat and wear pretty shoes for special occasions.

    Hoping you find relief,
    gena

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  36. Ouch! I hope your better soon.

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  37. Ok. Listen up. I've had the Plantar Fasciitis crap twice. Once in each foot. Obviously, the excruciating pain in just one foot wasn't good enough. ;o) That said, I know your pain, literally. If I am looking down at my foot, the pain was on my heel, but on the inside of my foot, towards my arch. As far as I know, Fasciitis pain can move around. I went to the dr., too. She looked at my foot, diagnosed me in 1 second, said it was due to going barefoot/wearing (cheap) flip-flops too often (which, I used to be either barefoot and/or wearing flip-flops! I live in Texas! :). She told me to get supportive shoes & that cute shoes are not supportive. ;o) She didn't send me for x-rays - she just told me that bit of information & sent me & my pain out the door. The pain hurt so bad. I have a very high pain tolerance, & it was bringing tears to my eyes. We have to walk, right? And I have 4 children. :) So, immediately I began keeping shoes on my feet. Yes, even in the house. Even now, I am never, ever barefoot, unless it's right after I shower. Anyway, I tried all kinds of expensive shoes. Every brand. Nothing helped. One day, I walked into Payless. Just to 'look'. I bought some 'Airwalks' for about $15. Wore them nonstop. Loved them. My pain went completely away, after I had suffered for literally, months & months! Then it arrived in my other foot. Do you want to know how I got rid of Fasciitis in that foot? True story - I had my young son 'beat' it out. He would bang, on that area of my foot, as hard as he could. It hurt. It hurt bad. But it was a feel-good hurt. I had him do this for a week or so & boom, the Fasciitis went away! Much quicker than the other foot. I have been Fasciitis free for a year or so now. I'm glad you're getting a second opinion, especially if you have a few issues going on. I know your frustration! Hang in there girl. Good luck! :)

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  38. Even when your down you manage to inspire ....I hope you feel better soon

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  39. Love the fact that you are putting yourself out there...holding yourself accountable. I pray for your pain to be gone...for your spirit to bounce riiiight back (sounds like it's on the rebound already) and cheering you on from here. Smiles to you as you rest this weekend and take care of you!

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  40. I have plantar fascitis too and it. is. such a pain. literally! I did some physical therapy which got me back to a livable, walkable life;)...but i know, who has time for that? Now, a few years later, it has crept back in here, but I think I just need new shoes. and we aren't talkin cute shoes;). wish you all the best to feel better! so frustrating! and i can't help but throw in the cliche "you can do it!" cause i really think you CAN!!!!!!

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  41. Oh my...! I feel you on this one (i needed a good cry). I am working on my weight loss as well. I have been out of the blog loop for awhile because its been hard to mind motivation on anything lately. I think its because I'm hungry. lol!

    I commend for what you do and even more for what you are doing for YOU. My saying is "one day at a time!" This is good for you that you are documenting everything because you are going to look back at this and see how you worked through this because this quite honestly AINT THE LAST...!

    I am now 25lbs down. You look wonderful darling, like I said I have been out of the loop so I had to do a double take. You are motivating me in your down time. I need to document everything.

    This is what I needed and I honestly thank you! I am sure more than just I can relate.

    YOU GOT THIS!!!!!

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  42. I am new to following your blog and I know that it's sort of trite to recommend a book when someone is experiencing something so real as you are right now but I am reading the book Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth and it is amazing. Even though I am coming from a place of anorexia your fears are my fears. I see the girl in the gray t-shirt and I want to ask that girl why can't you accept that girl... even though I fear that too. I fear truly accepting myself to my very core. That core is something that deep down I am hiding. Sometimes I just think to myself...I am so tired...not so much about what I am doing but sick of fighting what I am doing. Maybe I will eat the 6 M&M's and that won't be the end of me...maybe I will accept the me that just wants them. Maybe if I was really in touch with what it is I truly want those 6 M&M's wouldn't do it for me anymore. I am tired too...tired of holding it all together...the perfection or the striving for the perfection. I see the motivational pins on pinterest that ask us to "just do it" but the thing I think we all must do and we all must start to teach our young girls is to love and accept ourselves. Perhaps in that love and acceptance our true weight and body will reveal itself to us. I bless you on your journey and hope that you find healing to your foot, but perhaps this foot is trying to be a message to find the deeper meaning to this journey you have begun and that nothing can be lost on that scale. Peace and Love, Kate

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  43. Sorry to hear about your foot. I, too suffer from Plantar Fasciitis in my right foot. It is very painful and exactly like you state - impossible to walk without pain. It seems to come and go, but I blame it on the shoes I wear. I just got a new pair of Nikes - they made it so much worse. Gave them to Goodwill. I add high arch insoles to all of my shoes which helps so much.

    I hope you can figure out what brings it on for you and it gets better soon. Keep that pretty smile on your face. The tired and down feeling will pass soon enough and you will be able to get that runners high feeling again.

    My best- Diane

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  44. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! What a transformation---most of all in your mind. You have it in your head, so don't give up!

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  45. chin up, girl. you'll get there. :)

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  46. Hi Shelley, first time commenting, I had a heal spur for a year or two after my fourth baby.
    IT KILLED.
    Seriously painful.
    I would crawl out of bed in the morning. I put up with it for so long. Nothing sorted it out. Finally it just got better on its own. I feel for you, I really do. Keep going. Don't give up. You are an inspiration. Niki

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  47. Feel free to vent! I don't mind listening. At least you are brave enough to go for it and try to lose weight. I just whine and have some more to eat.....and I'm not smiling about it.

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  48. Hang in there, girl. I know how hard this is - I'm currently trying to lose 30+ pounds and it SUCKS!!!!! Don't let this make you backslide. You are doing AMAZING and I am so proud of you!!!!!!! You are an inspiration to me!

    I'm praying for a QUICK recovery for you!!!

    XOXO

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  49. I think it's AWESOME that the part you are most upset about it is not being able to work out... remember how much you "loved" it when you first started? You have come so far!!!

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  50. Thanks for ur post and keepin it real

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  51. I honestly do know how you feel, been there, broke a foot 70lbs into a weightloss, it sucks, plain and simple, just sucks! You've created new habits and are liking how you look and feel and now this darn boulder in the road! I'm a visual girl, betting with your since of decorating you might be too. Can you visualize yourself going up a big mountain and there is this boulder in your way, how are you gonna get around it, you can you know. You are a problem solver and resourceful, you do figure so many other things out and you can figure this out too! I don't mean to take anything away from you and tell you don't have the right to be bummed, you do, no doubt. This is temporary, don't go back down the mountain, you have worked too hard to get where you are! I'll be praying for you!

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  52. Everyone is going to relate to this post Shelly! We have all had days/weeks/months like this! And I agree that there is nothing more frustrating than not being able to exercise. When I don't exercise everything goes down hill... my food choices, my productivity, my MOOD. Watch out! :) But before long you will be running your little heart out with those awesome new headphones! And you will be so glad you hung in there. So hang in there! We are all rooting for you!! :)

    Erin

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  53. I know you are probably getting sick of advice about your foot, but here I go...sorry! I had exactly the same thing as you- bone spurs, plantar fasciitis, and a torn and stretched tendon, and I got completely different advice from my podiatrist(this was my second flare and doctor and completely different advice was given). I was running 3 mi. a day and weight training when it happened and she wanted me to continue all of it. She said slow it down on days when it was unbearable. She had me wear custom made orthodics, have cortizone injections in my heel and wear 1.5" heels all day until I went to bed, where I wore a boot...ya know one of those lovely, big clumsy things? It took what seemed like forever, but it finally healed (no pun intended). I remember being in NYC for a trade show and crying because it hurt so bad and I had to walk 5 blocks back to my hotel. Just don't give up. I have had it flare twice in my life the first time I was 27 and working out a lot like you and I did stop exercising and completely fell off my program. The 40# I had lost were slowly regained because I gave up. Exercise is so important,as you know. A second opinion may be a good idea. You are so brave for putting yourself out there with your weight loss story and such an inspiration to many. I am sure you will find the guts to persevere and get through this stumbling block. Good luck and speedy recovery to you!

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  54. I think you are pretty darn amazing... bum foot and all. Just thought you should know that. :)

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  55. I am so sorry you are in so much pain! That sounds horrible! I have been really depressed lately too. Sometimes looking like we have it all together can be the hardest part. I had a full on ugly cry meltdown last night. I can totally relate with that one. Cason is so sweet to give you those headphones. It is the little things that make the biggest difference. I just got the new Justin Bieber CD today and it TOTALLY made my day. If you don't already have it, you would love it. Sounds cheesy right? But it is amazing. If you need someone to pitty with, we can ugly cry together over Skype :)

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  56. I feel your angst. The journey from fat girl to healthy girl is paved with boulders and obstructions. I've lost 120 pounds and I'm still battling the feeling that I'm that fat girl. Still want to lose 20 more pounds and they are going harder than the first 100. But it's worth it. And I'll never regret the effort I put into it. My husband is my biggest fan and I'm so lucky to have him support me through this journey. Thank you for sharing yours and know that there are those of us who are traveling the same boulder strewn road with you...

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  57. Ahhhh... Planter Fasciaitis! I've had it for way to long now!! But I have to share with you something. The doctors gave me all sorts of ideas on how to make it feel better and they do, but it's a lot of work, too! wrap and ice and exercises.... I bought some fitflops (zappos) last year and there has been a remarkabe change! I wear thm almost all the time. If it's not the flip flops, it's the clogs. It help soooooo much that when I where my tennis shoes to exercise, the plantar facistis doesn't hurt. I have inside flip flops and outside flip flops and inside clogs and outside clogs! (You do have to wear shoes all the time to help with the PF.) They do have tennis shoes, but I haven't tried those yet. Hoenstly, I am not getting paid or free shoes or anything, but I can't tell you how much these shoes have helped my feet!!!! And you look great! A real motivator to keep me going too!

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  58. a few years ago I had the same foot issue and it completely broke me. The pain was insane and I too had to crawl most mornings down the hallways to the bathroom. It got in the way of everything and I it spilled into all areas of my life. So, I get "it". I ended up paying uber dollars for inserts into my shoes which I wore for about a year from memory andy guess what? it got fixed and I mean totally fixed. Have not had even a twinge back again so there is hope. hang in there, find a good podiatrist and get some specially made orthotics, not the cheap pharmacy kind. Good Luck.

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  59. Just want you to know that I have been dieting for about 6 months and exercising for 3, and last night YOUR WEIGHT LOSS POSTS kept me going and motivated me to get on my treadmill and keep going! Thanks! This too shall pass, and you'll be back at it!! :)

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  60. That stinks! Hang in there, sometimes an injury can seem like the HUGEST setback in weight loss. All injuries eventually heal, even if it seems like they won't. I got hurt a few months ago and I wondered if I might be in pain forever. But I started feeling better after a few weeks and I kept losing weight. You can do it!

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  61. That damn foot, sorry it's not cooperating very well :( Hopefully things will get sorted out really soon. Chin up buttercup that treadmill will feel oh so good when you get your "1st" run back in! These little bumps in the road are what make the achievements so great! Oh and your new hot pink headphones ROCK and look super cute on you!

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  62. Thanks for being human, honest and awesome! That is what keeps me coming back to you, ups or downs you always make me smile and try a little harder. I too have that Planter crap (can I say that) and with all my specialists and "stuff" that is supposed to help, what worked for me was the custom fit Dr.Scholl's Orthotics. They worked the best for my feet. Hang in you'll be back kicking it soon! :)

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  63. Weight loss is hard and emotionally challenging in the best of times--very hard when hurt. Look at how far you've come and how much you've accomplished. Then give yourself permission to heal. Then kick some butt when your foot is better. You. Can. Do. It.

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  64. Shelley...first time I've commented ever, but I want you to know, I totally understand! I got a horrible bout of plantar fascitis plus a bone spur as a result of working out. It hurts SO bad...plus you have to walk on it...argghh! It is very discouraging, especially when you want to lose weight. Good for you for going to the Dr. right away! I, unfortunately, waited...wait for it...4 years. Really stupid. Thank you, Jesus, it is now healed...but it is an inflammation that can return, especially with the bone spur. Now I know what to do when it acts up. Hope you feel better soon! KG

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  65. When I say " I know how you feel" I really know how you feel! Had the plantar fasciitis with two heel spurs to boot! Recently had surgery that has stopped me from my beloved elyptical and I can't wait to get back to my routine again. It's a rough time but " this too shall pass" hang in there, it's just one more obstacle to overcome. You can do this!

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  66. Shelley, you darling, lovely girl. I have had this miserable condition, and I knnow how to fix it! I have spent the money, seen the specialists and done the work. I was better within a month, and I told the doc that told me what to do that I was skeptical and that I would only try it and then I was gonna move on. This was when I was 55 years old honey. I am going to try to explain this, but if you don't understand, I am going to give you my cell number to call me. You need to stretch. Stand about 24 inches away from like, your counter, as you can tolerate. Lock your knees, and do like a little push up. Lower yourself down to the counter and hold it as long as you can. Move your feet out an inch every few days. My doc gave me a boot to sleep in that pulled my toes back, and I had to sleep that way. But the counter stretch works, do it as often as you can. Like work up to every 15 minutes. This pain is exhausting, this can be fixed. I love your site, call me! 541-647-7069 Lisa. Hugz!

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  67. And further, I have been a round girl all my life too, I currently have lost 30 pounds have about 40 more to go. Weight is a funny thing,we tie so much of our esteem to it, which is all kinds of screwed up. But, it doesn't much matter does it?. When you get pain free, you will get on with this. I love your blog, and you are awesome. You can do this, cause all of us are doing it together.I love your family and feel privileged to be sharing this journey with you. I was on crutches, this foot thing can be overcome! Call me if you like.

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  68. Hi girl.
    Long time blog reader:)
    I had to comment after your post today.
    I've kind of been where you are with the plantar Faciitis.
    I went to see Dr. John Krage DC in San Diego at the san Diego spine and disc clinic. Www.askdrjohn.com
    It was worth it. It changed my life which I know sounds silly to some. But PL pain is life altering. And so is the help for it.
    He does thorough evaluations. And for me his AMAZING orthotics have changed everything.
    I know you don't live there, I don't either. But it is worth the trIp.
    Best of luck.

    You can do this!
    i

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  69. Oh dear Shelley, I know just what you are going through. It happened to me at Christmas 2010. we went to a family party and I could hardly hobble, let alone walk. I went to the doctor, he said get an arch support, which gave little relief. The "draw the alphabet with your feet before you get out of bed in the morning" and "rolling the frozen water bottle" did little. Finally after months of pain, I got online and looked for some ideas for getting rid of it... SPORTS MED! (If you're going to a doc, go to the sports med doc!) I got some exercises from a sports med doc online, began those... got some *born* shoes from Nordstrom Rack (go up and down sizes till the arch fits in the right place... they are wonderful... or danscos... don't do as my friend who special ordered some shoes made to fit just her foot that cost her like $300 or more and didn't work.) Finally got relief. Now I only feel it a little, once in awhile, when a storm is rolling in. Wish you were here so I could show you the exercises... I look kinda foolish doing some of them, but who cares... they work! I do have to do them everyday, but my calves look great! Good luck!

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  70. Losing weight is hard! Damn hard!! Just wanted to say you look great and I think I PML (Peed Myself Laughing, it's the new LOL) thinking about your uncooked chicken on a treadmill analogy! Wow, I'm pretty sure that's what I look like when I run too! Hugs...

    Jeannine @ The Concrete Cottage

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  71. Oh dear Shelley, I know just what you are going through. It happened to me at Christmas 2010. we went to a family party and I could hardly hobble, let alone walk. I went to the doctor, he said get an arch support, which gave little relief. The "draw the alphabet with your feet before you get out of bed in the morning" and "rolling the frozen water bottle" did little. Finally after months of pain, I got online and looked for some ideas for getting rid of it... SPORTS MED! (If you're going to a doc, go to the sports med doc!) I got some exercises from a sports med doc online, began those... got some *born* shoes from Nordstrom Rack (go up and down sizes till the arch fits in the right place... they are wonderful... or danscos... don't do as my friend who special ordered some shoes made to fit just her foot that cost her like $300 or more and didn't work.) Finally got relief. Now I only feel it a little, once in awhile, when a storm is rolling in. Wish you were here so I could show you the exercises... I look kinda foolish doing some of them, but who cares... they work! I do have to do them everyday, but my calves look great! Good luck!

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  72. Wish I could say it was going to be easy. But it's not. It's worth fighting for. Your beautiful family deserves a healthy you. You deserve a healthy, beautiful you. Keep going... You are an inspiration to many without even knowing it. I myself have had a completely different life challenge, but like you have been faced with a dramatic set back and am struggling with the "why me" & "woe is me" syndrome. I had to have MAJOR oral surgery which required me to have all my lower teeth removed and have begun the long and arduous (& painful) process of implants. Talk about a blow to ones self-esteem. Wow. It's forced me to make some needed changes in the kitchen. Like you, through all of this I've tried to remain positive and look on the bright side. It can always be worse. Hang in there Girl... don't give up.

    PS... HE'S A KEEPER!! (I have one too, for 28 yrs - aren't they the best?)

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  73. oh, I GET you. I lost 50 lbs before my 3rd baby and was feeling fit and great, but then, well, had a 3rd baby :) And put back on 30 of the 50 lbs. I started to try and lose some weight twice so far, but something always stopped me (summer bbqs, christmas treats, a pulled neck)... now I've been eating really well for the past month and have lost 5 lbs... but I hosted an end-of-year party for the kids and BAKED. For 2 days, I licked icing and batter and was so scared that would be the end of it again... but I did great yesterday! 1 day at a time, right? I hope your foot starts to heal, and I hope we can both remember that this fitness/health thing is for life... slow and steady wins the race :)

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  74. You need a Strassburg sock from Amazon. or anywhere else. Believe the first doctor. It takes a long time to heal. Rubber, flexible shoes and soles help. no flip flops. Google some exercises. Ann

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  75. Thanks for being so honest and raw with your emotions. A lot of the time we look at blogs and think that everyone else has it "all together" and that they are so much more ( fillin the blank) than we are! I am sorry you are going through such a rough patch, but I appreciate you sharing it honestly with us! If it helps at all, you are not alone!

    My Mom had plantar fasciitis and the only things that gave her permanent relief were orthotics for her hoes and using a frozen bottle of water to roll under foot each morning BEFORE she set foot out of bed. She saw a million doctors and had countless cortisone shots, oral meds, etc. . . This is what worked or her, if it helps you at all.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there, it WILL get better!

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  76. Hi! I know doctor advice is the last thing you want to hear, but have you gone to a rheumatologist yet? They specialize in inflammatory processes in joints, tendons and ligaments. Some of them are more focused and specialized in this area then others, so ask around. Also, you mentioned taking a lot of Advil. Did the doctor mention or prescribe a prescription NSAID, like aCelebrex? One last thing and them I promise my non-professional medical advice is coming to an end :). ICE THE BEJEEZ OUT OF YOUR FOOT! Like a minimum of 20 minutes 2 times per day. Plantar fasciitis is *#%^!

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  77. You can do it! Thank you so much for sharing about this difficult time for you. It is good to know that even people you look up to are human and share some of the same struggles. Hearing your story is motivating me to hang in there with some similar struggles. You are awesome!

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  78. I really needed this tonight. I am in the exact spot you are. Only I ate six Hershey's Kisses. I felt just like you did. To me it signaled the beginning of the end. I was jumping on your blog for some inspiration and oddly enough, through your despair, I found some. I am not alone. YOU are not alone. We've got this! Life is crazy right now. I'm just going to make a conscious effort to control what I can until things are back to my safe routine. I failed before because of my "all or nothing" mentality and I refuse to let that bring me down this time. This is my new way of living. It wasn't a phase. I'm not going to beat myself up over those Hershey Kisses (or the 8 marshmallows). Thanks for being so honest. If I had gotten on here tonight and read about how your journey is all sunshine and rainbows, I would not be as motivated as I am now.

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  79. I am so sorry you are sidelined right now. So frustrating. I LOVE that you can be honest with it though and not gloss over that sometimes its just hard. Life is such a journey and for now I will pray that you are able to channel this sideline experience into something wonderful you never saw coming.
    I know that weary tired is exhausting and it does tend to go to every area of our life. Just a reader commiserating with you BUT looking for the better day on the other side!!! Hope it comes quickly for you...believing it will. Thanks for making us all enjoy life a little more. Blessings to you!

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  80. Hang in there! You're making one of the hardest changes anyone can make. And you're great! (really)

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  81. Hi! First of all I just have to say that I came across your blog a couple of weeks ago and I LOVE IT. I've spent hours going back and reading previous posts, that's how much I love it! You have amazing taste and a beautiful family and I love reading about your decorating. But what really did it for me were your posts on weight loss - I've found them SO inspirational and I'm so impressed with how far you've gotten and how you've stuck with it! I think it's great that you're sharing when you feel demotivated and tired, we've all been there and it's just so motivating for me to see how you've pulled through and stuck with it. So, even though you're not looking for sympathy, I just wanted to try and give you some! You're looking amazing and you should be so proud of yourself for what you've achieved! Thanks for writing such an amazing blog!

    Love from Oslo, Norway,

    Anna (www.annglophile.blogspot.com)

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  82. I am so glad you can put it all out there. You say everything I would like to say, but don't/can't on my blog. I wanted to let you know I have been having the same exact problem with my foot!!! I started with custom inserts that I have to wear all the time. After a few weeks of getting used to those (BTW I can still wear cute shoes with them) it wasn't improving much. So my Dr gave me a Cortisone injection in my foot and it has almost cleared up the problem. Amazing. After having this problem for at least six months I can't believe the difference. You need to ask your Dr about this, or come see mine.

    And I can totally understand on the exercise thing. I am not someone would think of as a fitness guru, but I do like going to the gym. It helps me a ton emotionally! Keep up the good work!!!!!!!

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  83. I had a coworker who got plantar faciiatis when she started running to lose weight. I remember how disappointed she was and felt like it was derailing her progress.

    You're doing so great. I don't know you but am so proud of you for sticking with this and doing it for yourself.

    Yes, you've reached an impasse but maybe this is just to test your strength and resolve. You've got this! To steal a quote from Pinterest: Don't give up what you want most for what you want now.

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  84. This too shall pass! It's normal! I felt the same way( a little depression kicked in) when I had brain surgery and was healing for 4 weeks. I couldn't exercise, work, drive, etc! I love following your blog! I'm so inspired by you!

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  85. This too shall pass! It's normal! I felt the same way( a little depression kicked in) when I had brain surgery and was healing for 4 weeks. I couldn't exercise, work, drive, etc! I love following your blog! I'm so inspired by you!

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  86. First of all, its comforting to know I'm not the only person who has an earbud problem. Secondly, I have the same foot issues. I'm not sure what they told you, but I ended up opting for a cortisone shot, stretches and orthotics. I still have problems but NOTHING like the onset. Good luck and hang in there!

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  87. I am shocked I'm the first to give you a virtual hug! I'm sorry your foot and your spirit is bent out of shape. Thank you for being so honest, helping me to know I'm not the only one who gets the "mean reds"! I'm sure it will get better, perhaps this is your body!s way of telling you you need a mental break form it all. Go do something fun (without the walking). Or do what I do and tell your family your going "out" then hide in your studio all day...not working!!

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  88. I love how honest you are in this post. Pain sucks. You are so fortunate to have such a supportive husband, and I even teared up at the gift of headphones ; p Take it easy this weekend, and don't beat yourself up. All progress happens with a few minor setbacks. *hugs*

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  89. OMG its like this post was made for me. I just published a post Monday about How I Hate Bruce Jenner...you know, bc he can run more than a mile and I cant. Yet I LOVE running. I love how it makes me feel and I will still do it no matter what and NO I do not like to do any other exercise so I know for a fact that running was made for me.
    Then I got on the scale this morning, gained two pounds this week after having the week from hell....and yes, I still ran three times this week....so I was low. Real low. Like I wanna sit in a room with a box of Oreos low. Then I read this post and it was like an intervention.
    Thank you for this. You have no idea what a great time this came into my life. :)
    Keep the faith, all will get better.
    I just have to keep repeating that mantra to myself now.

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  90. I know you and I are strangers, but I love your blog. I love reading about the real you. It's nice to know as women, we aren't alone in these normal, but very difficult experiences! You are my inspiration in weight loss, and in perserverance.

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  91. I suffer from plantar fasciitis as well and find it hard to exercise when your feet are killing you. One suggestion my family doctor had was to not be barefoot at home and wear Crocs. I bought a pair and now find it more bearable to walk around the house. I am now a little obsessed since I won't even get out of bed to go to the bathroom without putting on my shoes.

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  92. Oh WOW !!!! I could seriously have written the depression thing from basically being told no more running & to keep off my feet !!!!! I sat & sobbed for a whoooole afternoon when I had my feet looked at & I was found to have the same deal with Plantar Fascitis as well & the Transversal Arches in both my feet had dropped. My Physio has been amazing but going on 4mths now of being unable to run & being limited even with being on my feet full stop & it is depressing !!!!!

    Sadly I put on weight at first because yep I went back to old habits but have since lost it again & a little more. So I know I can do it, it's just a change of tack.

    But I am soooo hearing ya, honestly I couldn't understand the sadness. It seems so silly but it is still an adjustment on life & sometimes adjustments suck !

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  93. Shelly. I was shocked at no comments! Maybe you didn't want any? But. My friend. I'm giving you a HUG. re: the Plantar Fasciitis(sp?). You sound just like I did some years ago. It IS the worst! I too, CRAWLED. So pitiful! lol But I found this great DOC... after a few others told me 'no hope' type stuff. He gave me a shot in my heel (for the life of me I can't think of what) AND told me SHOES are the key. Today... I have hardly ANY shoes.. can't wear but a few. I NEVER EVER wear any others but the SPECIAL ones. Formulated for our prob. But today, I NEVER go barefoot... OUCH, but I'm able to work on a cement floor all day! And my feet don't hurt! Wish I could tell you more. But girl. I understand. Hang in there.

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  94. You are doing great. Too often people have a tendency to see weight loss as an "all or nothing" endeavor. To lose weight you have to act like a contestant on "Biggest Loser". Losing weight isn't a sprint. You can coast for a while and just enjoy what you have lost, cementing new behaviors.

    Try not to see your injury as an insurmountable road block. As a dietitian, I can tell you that losing weight is 90% diet and 10% exercise. It is so much easier to cut out calories than to exercise weight off. You burn about 100 calories running a mile while my breakfast cereal had 220 calories in a cup. Take care of yourself and enjoy how far you have come. You have reason to be proud of yourself!

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  95. I may not know you, but I sure do love you! Hang in there! And what's not sexy about an ankle brace!? ;)

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  96. i'm so sorry you have plantar fasciitis!! i have it as well after working on my feet for 7 years and having sensitive feet. maybe you've tried these already but the only 2 things that helped relieve my pain were rolling my feet over a tennis ball (putting pressure on it and going slowly, especially in the middle of the foot, this stretches out the tendons and is painful in doing but feels better afterwards) and aleve. aleve was the only medication that helped with the pain when it was too great. hoping for the best for you!!

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  97. Way to go Girl! Thanks so much for keeping it real, because quite frankly some days do suck and satan tries to steal our joy, accomplishments, and contentment..........BUT overcoming those doubts and finding courage to get through the "pain," that's the good Lord above & a great husband helps too. Peace to you.

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  98. Personal growth always comes after hiccups in life!
    I am a new blogger and so glad I stumbled upon your blog! I would love for you to read about me at www.recreateanddecorate.com. We are a Military family, bringing our forever home to the 21st century, that oh by the way is put on hold due to my husband's deployment to Afganistan! I am always looking for a mentor! I have so many questions!! Trying to get aquainted with other bloggers like me!
    recreateanddecorate@yahoo.com
    www.recreateanddecorate.com
    Love your blog!!

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  99. Thanks for this post! In a round about way it made me grateful for all that I have and especially for my crazy sexy best friend/husband! I am pregnant and in a crazy amount of pain because of that and I am only 23 weeks so I have quite a while to go. This has made me grumpy and not so much fun to be around. So thanks for the pep talk! You are great and I love your blog!

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  100. You can do it Shelley! You are my inspiration. I have a friend that just lost 93 pounds. That means you ONLY have 33 more to go. You are more than 1/2 way there. Keep going, keep moving and now you both have inspired me to do something too! I tired of being the fat girl too. SIGH... so hard. God Bless you for sharing your journey. I am a loyal email subscriber :)

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  101. Be kind to yourself - there's a lot to "work out" inside when physical changes happen! Your exterior pain may be the result of your emotions telling you to get off your feet and take some time to recover! (Sometimes "doing" = "being"!) Thanks for sharing - your thoughts give us all a chance to reflect on our own lives!

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  102. I am right there with you!!! I used to weigh over 600 pounds and lost 300 but I am struggling now, since I had my son, to lose again and you are my inspiration! You are an amazing person and I am so grateful for your example! Hang in there and keep pluggin along.....and keep being the beautiful person you are inside and out!!! And hey - everyone is entitled to have a bad day!

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  103. OK so I have had plantar fasciitas too. Have you tried holding your foot up and pushing down on your heel? Also taping around your foot from big toe to small toe a little tight then adding tape around your instep. That seems to help too! You are right, I would rather crawl then have my feet hurt. Connie

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  104. Dearest Shelly! Love your guts! I too have the plantar fasciatis ( yea it's spelled wrong whatever). Don't despair. Those ugly old lady shoes with giant soles they made me buy aren't the only ones that will solve your problem. I went to the New b store to buy my ugly shoes and proceeded to CRY for 20 minutes.. In the store.... Dansko has some wonderful options, wearing chacos around my house all the time, getting inserts to put in my running shoes. Don't despair... There is hope. ;) after you get a diagnosis if you want some practical advice please contact me.
    Love someone who met you in the slc airport that one time ;) Natalie. Nattyg@yahoo

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  105. 1.hugs to you
    2.Cason is awesome
    3. thank you for sharing the good, bad, & ugly, cuz we are all g, b, & u
    4. You knew this wasn't going to be easy and it will make it all the more worth it.
    5. you are going to make your goal and I can't wait to be here when you do.
    6. summon your eagle powers! you can do it. love you girl.xo

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  106. Hey Shelley, I'm so sorry ur foots being a pain in the a$#%! you may or may notf of used this, but when I can't work out, and sometimes when I do, I use "My Fittness Pal" app on my phone to help me keeps track of what I can eat/calorie intake, I know u r doing more of a life changs instead of just calorie count but it might make u feel better till u are back on ur feet, litterly :) amber

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  107. Shelly,
    It's so funny, but I was just looking at your blog thinking, "Be patient. It's summer with her kids. Stop compulsively checking for her to write another post." Alas, it's also my summer off from school so I'm much more obsessive with blog-reading than when I'm teaching.

    Anyway, I thought to myself, "Maybe she's writing a weight loss post. I'd love to know how she's doing." I'm sad that you're so exhausted. I completely understand how you feel (minus the kids because I don't have any), but I do hope you keep pushing on! It's not "JUST fat", it's your whole lifestyle and it's your mindset. Don't feel like your problem is small. My husband is currently losing tons of weight and I'm desperately trying not to look like I've had a baby before we get pregnant, haha, and it's so hard not to still see yourself as the bigger person you were before. My husband struggles with looking at our wedding photos because he hates how he looked and can't believe that he doesn't still look that way. It makes me crazy, but I know how hard it is for him!

    Anyway, this is a long-winded way to tell you not to be too down. Enjoy the pinterest. And dang, HOW GOOD WAS THE BACHELORETTE THIS WEEK?! Who are you rooting for?!

    Prayers for you & your foot! :)

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  108. That's a bummer! Don't give up! How much longer do you have to be off your foot?

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  109. Shelley, I'm so sorry..ive been there too with plantar fascititis and it sucks!! I always hated to run too and then when I couldn't it was torture.
    Wish I could say something wonderful I knew would make you feel better but all I can say is don't give up! It'll pass and you'll come back with strength you didn't know you had :)
    P.S. I think every thing on your list is on mine too...ugh..
    oh I'm on instagram now!! Following you

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  110. Shelley, I can actually say that I know how you are feeling. I fractured my tib/fib last year in early June and was in a cast for 7 weeks and then a boot. Long story short, couldn't walk on my own for 3 months. It put me in a really low place and the biggest reason was not being able to work out. I heard the, "Oh, u can still do weights, swim or what about that bike that you pedal with your arms?" Easier said than done for sure. I was PETRIFIED that I would never get back on my weight loss journey. Well...I am happy to say that I did and I am 30 lbs lighter a year later after not losing any weight for 5 months! I was miserable, but I had to kick my perfectionist attitude to the curb and focus on the daily goals and try to avoid the big picture. Does that make sense? I had the attitude that if I couldn't exercise, then why bother eating healthy? That attitude allowed 6 lbs to creep up quickly in one month. After that I made up my mind to eat EVEN healthier while I was sedentary. I am not going to lie and say I did "arm workouts" because I didn't. I just dialed back into my clean eating and lowered my calorie intake a little more to make up for th exercise and it turned out OK. Just hang in there! I know you can do it!

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  111. Shelley, I can actually say that I know how you are feeling. I fractured my tib/fib last year in early June and was in a cast for 7 weeks and then a boot. Long story short, couldn't walk on my own for 3 months. It put me in a really low place and the biggest reason was not being able to work out. I heard the, "Oh, u can still do weights, swim or what about that bike that you pedal with your arms?" Easier said than done for sure. I was PETRIFIED that I would never get back on my weight loss journey. Well...I am happy to say that I did and I am 30 lbs lighter a year later after not losing any weight for 5 months! I was miserable, but I had to kick my perfectionist attitude to the curb and focus on the daily goals and try to avoid the big picture. Does that make sense? I had the attitude that if I couldn't exercise, then why bother eating healthy? That attitude allowed 6 lbs to creep up quickly in one month. After that I made up my mind to eat EVEN healthier while I was sedentary. I am not going to lie and say I did "arm workouts" because I didn't. I just dialed back into my clean eating and lowered my calorie intake a little more to make up for th exercise and it turned out OK. Just hang in there! I know you can do it!

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  112. Coming out of Lurkville to say 'You Rock, Shelley'. Thanks for sharing your struggles - it's so helpful and inspiring to know that everyone has SOMETHING to work through and life is never perfect. I laughed at your treadmill happy thought :)
    And I'd call it definite progress when you reach for a big handful of Pinterest instead of a box of cookies!!!

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  113. I have Plantar's fasciitis, too. I did everything wrong at first (don't be like me!). Get a second opinion, definitely. You probably need the boot (the one online for $50 is the same as the $400 at the drs office). Buy the insoles from the doctor's office made for your foot. You probably have high arches and all the running you've been doing has caused/aggravated the PF. Con't w/the motrin (hey, they think it lowers your chance of colon cancer, so there's something). My doc also said ONLY BUY RUNNING SHOES FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE...ugh. He's right though, after half hearted attempts to listen for 18 months, I have been pain free for a year. I was like you for awhile, you know that, "Holy cow, am I going to hurt forever, will I ever run again???" The answer is yes, and the sooner you get this fixed the sooner you can get back to you happy place. :D
    Bren

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  114. Coming out of Lurkville to say 'You Rock, Shelley'. Thanks for sharing your struggles - it's so helpful and inspiring to know that everyone has SOMETHING to work through and life is never perfect. I laughed at your treadmill happy thought :)
    And I'd call it definite progress when you reach for a big handful of Pinterest instead of a box of cookies!!!

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  115. Thank you. I am struggling too with Weight. I thought I was the only one who has these days. I think you said everything I have been feeling lately. And you also gave me hope. Thank you and keep it up!!

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  116. You are so inspiring to me!! I just started a weight loss program (yet another) and am having some great results. I'm so with you on the ugly fat voice talking me down in my head... I had this little accident a couple days ago and really did a number on my leg. So I'm sympathizing with you about the pain, and also the lack of exercise which helps so much for me to feel instantly accomplished. I'll be thinking of you, and hoping things improve very quickly. Best of luck, you rock!!!
    P.S. Have you considered a massage therapist for your Plantar fasciitis? I have had this in the past and my massage therapist fixed me up in two treatments.

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  117. You are right. We all have those times when we get overwhelmed and frustrated by everything! Try googling foot injury workout or full body workout with foot injury. There are a lot out there and at least it would keep you in the routine and work your upper body without putting pressure on yOur foot!!

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  118. Oh my glory, I developed plantar faciitis a few years ago and it is agony. I couldn't even walk in the morning. Doctors were no help at all. I bought a foot brace on Amazon (here it is: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001G0N6KE/ref=oh_details_o03_s00_i00). The key for me was the stretch the brace provides my foot all night. I was able to walk the very first morning after wearing it. If you want to keep running, you need to wear the brace at night regularly to keep the tendons/ligaments stretched. Very best wishes for your speedy recovery!

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  119. Don't give up! I know of two people in my life who have battled this and WON! They can run again! You can do it too!! This is giving you some (maybe) needed down time to take care of yourself, but you'll beat the foot and be up and running again!! Take care!

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  120. Aww...I hope your foot is healed in no time and you're back at it asap! I think that is sooo sooo sweet of your hubby to surprise you with beats by dr headphones and pink ones too! Very cool! You look amazing keep it up!!!! *hugs*

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  121. Shelley,
    I am a new reader to your awesome blog-just want to say-AMEN-to all you've shared!

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  122. Run(as fast as you can hobble) to a doctor who believes in natural hormone replacement and have a full thyroid blood panel done.

    Plantar Fasciitis and a tiredness that wouldn't go away were the first signs I had of hypothyroidism or low thyroid and also the first recurring sign I get that my med(Armour Thyroid)needs to be adjusted.

    The pain in my feet was so severe that I would walk like a 100 year old woman bent over because it hurt so much particularly after sleeping or driving. Both activities where I point my toes for long periods of time.

    None of the usual treatments helped. Not sleeping with a foot brace, keeping my feet flat when sitting, deep tissue massage, rolling my foot on a golf ball, stretching my calves by doing lifts and drops off the edge of a step nor wearing shoes with supports any time I was standing.

    And the tiredness, what can I say that you haven't already said? Everything that came easily before for me was a suddenly a struggle and I wanted to do none of it.

    Good luck to you. I hope this info will help.

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  123. Hi

    I love your blog and for over a year now I have reading it (well I confess sometimes I only have time to see the pictures) but, I have followed along. I have never posted but today I was inspired. I myself run a business, support my family from far, live by myself far from family (and by far I mean a totally different country), have 5 dogs. And just like you have a list of many things I am tired of as well. Like I'm really tired of working 13 hour days because I simply can't find another full time employee so, I have part timers which means I am here 2 shifts basically for 6 days a week for the last 6 months. And Sundays I do what every woman still has to do clean, wash, bathe dogs, go grocery shopping at the end of Sunday I am more tired than if I had gone to work.
    In 2010 I had decided I was selling my business and moving back home closer to family and a whole support system that I don't have here. Yet, 2 years have gone by and I have no buyers. I also had lost 34 lbs and was thrilled with how I looked and felt. Then I had a couple of hard deaths in my family, my best friend decided to call it quits out of her life, which just broke me and once again I found solace in bread, cookies, cake, pasta...on top of that I am a cook and so all I cooked or baked I ate.
    It has taken me 2 years and my biggest pants not fitting anymore to make me realize that I had to come up with a different plan. So, I decided wether I sell the business of not I have to move back and start again. So, I purchased land, broke ground and drew my plans for my dream house which is now in the works (slowly....like snail pace...mostly cause I don't have all the $$$) but it was hope. And after a scare of the possibility of having breast cancer I decided enough is enough so I have started my weight loss once again 2 weeks ago already loosing 6 lbs. I don't blog (but I might soon) yet I just wanted to say how much I know the feeling of having those 6 m&m's in your hand is.
    Hang in there, you are my inspiration! And we won't let you give up.

    Sherry

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  124. You are so motivating to me, even when you are down and tired. I too am on a weight loss journey. It has been a roller coaster ride for me and too many times I've gotten off the ride completely only to regret it and set myself back more than before. I just met with a nutritionist a couple days ago speaking about weight loss. It was awesome. One thing he said to me was that you only need enough carbs to get you through your daily high intensity activities and then anything more than that is too much for your body. About a year and a half ago I was going to boot camp religiously. One thing I didn't do was change my diet. I thought working out as hard as I was I would see results. I didn't. I saw a little bit in my strength and stamina but none in my weight loss. Then I read a quote that said weight loss is 80% of what you eat and the rest is exercise (something like that). So even though you can't work out like you have in the past you can focus on your diet and still loose weight. You can do it. Take care of yourself and get your foot feeling better. You will be running again before you know it.

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  125. I so understand everything you are talking about . . . giving up, failure, struggling, pain, motivation . . . all of it! (Sadly, even the plantar fasciitis . . . which I don't suffer from right now, but have had twice in the past, and at one point in both feet!) Ouch! You are such an inspiration. Thanks for putting it out there!

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  126. I too have had the same problems with my feet. I tried everything the doctors told me too. The only thing that worked for me was shoes called Z-Coil. I had plantar faciitis for 6 years and I was ready for surgery! anything to relieve the constant aching pain. I bought a pair of Z-Coil shoes and with in 2 weeks I was pain free and have been pain free since then and that was 5 years ago! They are a custom fit shoe and worth every penny! you might also try Defy Gravity Shoes. they too have coils in the heels to help with the pressure. Good luck, love your blog, thanks for all of the great ideas.
    pam

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  127. Shelly, I have to say that I have been right where you are, in fact, I had to lay off of my foot for six weeks. It was tragic. I plummeted to a new low. I was devastated.

    Are you stretching your heel before you get out of bed? I hope you are because it helps a lot. Also, do it before you go to bed.

    While I know you are all about natural and herbal remedies, I will say that mine became so bad that like you, I was ready to chop my foot off. I wasn't prepared for what happened next. Previously, I had received cortizone shots for my neck pain and knee pain, so I thought I'll go along with my doctor's opinion. He gave me a shot in my heel. It was most painful, but it did the trick for my heel and fixed all of my other problems. I know all about the negative opinions of those shots and the weight gain.

    My trainer still worked with me, but we did nt work out my heel. At last, my domino effect stopped falling down. Life was great again.

    I know you know this, but even when times are at their worst, be still, and be thankful. This too shall pass. Don't forget how far you have come in this amazing journey. I pray for a new blessing and a change of attitude. You got this, girl.

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  128. What?! So you are not perfect?! I thought I was the only one feeling like a failure and for me I haven't even tried to lose my tonnage. Please don't feel down on yourself. You've had your pity party and it is time to move on. I wish I was in your shoes.
    You have people rooting for you (I am one of them)!
    HUGS and prayers of comfort and healing for you and your foot.

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  129. I must tell you that I UNDERSTAND your feelings. I just lost a large amount of weight and I understand that voice in your head trying to tell you that the M& M's are okay...they'll make you feel better, you deserve it, yadda yadda yadda. Being unable to work out because of your foot is only making th voice louder, I am sure. Keep your vigilance, though. You CAN do this and the momentary satisfaction and euphoria the chocolate will give you will soon be replaced with a "WHY did I just eat that?" You are strong and will get past this. You must stay proud of what you have done and will continue to do. It is so worth it! Blessings.

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  130. Oh ugh! I hope your foot feels better soon, that really sucks! As for 6 M&M's, to me, you showed great willpower! I don't think I can stop at 6 once I get started!!!

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  131. I've been following your blog for a while, and I just want to say that you look great!! Sending lots of happy thoughts and encouragement your way. :)

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  132. Are you open to trying a healing meditation? If you are, you may try the one called RA MA DA SA (basically you repeat RA MA DA SA SA SEI SO HUNG 11 times a day), which is the traditional healing meditation of Kundalini yoga.
    Also,YOU CAN TOTALLY DO THIS! Losing weight is a journey, in which there are setbacks some times, but that's ok. That's life. Keep going!

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  133. I'm feel the pain with your feet. I went years limping. I tried orthotics, had orthoscopic surgery to have the heel spurs removed (they did come back years later.) But let me tell you the thing that has saved me are boots from the cowboy boot store. I heard that cowboy boots are recommended by podiatrists. I look forward to putting on my boots (specifically an English style boot: http://www.ariat.com/English/Women/Footwear/PaddockBoots/PerformerZip.html?color=CHOCOLATE ) They lace up (with a zipper in the back.) Ariat/ paddock boot. Sometimes they are on sale at Boot Barn.
    If I wear anything else my feet throb all night and I limp all day. Yes they are expensive. But that's all I wear (except for church.) I even go fast walking in them.
    I hope you can find relief because painful feet are really a bummer.
    BTW- I love your blog!

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  134. Sending happy healing thoughts to you.

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  135. I'm a long time follower, but I have never commented, but I had to say I think you are brave for putting it all out there, and I can definitely relate to it! I seem to always hit similar road blocks, with similar injuries. My saving grace was/is being married to a chiropractor, and having a brother in law as a physical therapist. Miracle workers I tell ya!

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  136. Ok, first let me set this up... I'm reading your post while SHOVING hershey's toffee nuggets down my throat. My shirt is too tight and I'm wearing stretchy pants because nothing else fits. I'm tired too. But mine is a "I have a newborn and am trying to figure out life with 3 little ones" kind of tired. Oh yeah, AND we just moved, my husband just had minor surgery and everything is just chaos. Anyway- that's the long way of saying that I TOTALLY get how you feel. I have no magic words, just support. You rock. You are motivating to everyone who reads your blog. You'll never be the gray shirt girl again, so don't worry about it. Oh and Let's have a pity party together. :)

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  137. The thing about being so hardcore with exercise, is that injuries HAPPEN. It is just apart of being active and working out as hard as you have in the past 8 months. I got plantar facitis when I was in the peak of my high school soccer days. Basically, I let it destroy me. I didn't take the time off I was supposed to, and I still suffer from the occasional foot pain when I work out or walk too much. Take the time off. I say, YOU DESERVE IT GIRL! What helped with the pain is freezing small Dixie cups half full of water, then tearing down the sides and then rubbing the frozen cup along the arch of your foot with some pressure. It localizes the icing and massages it a bit. Just some advice from a fellow plantar sufferer! Good luck and stay positive.

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  138. You always put a smile on my face when I read your posts and even in your time of frustration and sorrow, I find myself smiling again because I think you say all the things that we as moms, wives, crafters want to say! ! Keep your head up! !
    Allison in NC

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  139. Wow. This is the first post I've read on your blog, stumbled over here from thenesteffect. Might I just say that this hit so so close to home that I had to make sure I didn't write this myself. Yikes. Right down to the foot pain (mine is ankle actually). I'm a runner, and my recent half-marathon training got me feeling the best I have ever felt. The week before the race I got this crippling pain in my ankle. Since then I spent two months visiting specialists and taking way too much Aleve but there was absolutely no improvement. I was so tired of gimping around, or being in pain, and trying to keep up with my toddler and my life with this stupid ankle. Got an MRI and.....fracture. Great. So now I've been on crutches for a week. I'm sure I have at least 4-6 more weeks of this. The worst part about the whole thing is that running/working out is MY TIME and my stress relief. I can get away, get fresh air, listen to a book or music. I get way jealous when I see anyone out running. Now I don't have that. So I SO SO SO understand how it can be so easy to get sick of life when something like this happens. I'm doing my best to stay positive, and put my situation in perspective (so you broke your ankle, that really NOT a big deal in the scheme of things). Good luck with your healing, and thanks for the post, will be visiting often!

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  140. I feel ya! I have read that we can only exhibit self-control in so many areas at one time. I am guilty of that. If I start working out and eating healthy my house is dirty and I spend too much money. If I try sticking to a budget and keeping the house tidy, I quit exercising. I can never keep all the balls in the air at one time. Err! I guess we can have it all, but not all at once. Right now I am making it be about ME! I need to get healthy, the rest can wait. Best of luck. Overcoming an injury is tough for everyone.

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  141. I appreciate your honesty! Just Know you have a HUGE fan base behind you cheering you on. GO SHELLEY, GO SHELLEY, GO!!!!!!! This to shall pass.
    Hugs

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  142. I feel you with the working out. I think this post is probably the best therapy/advice you can have.

    I can help you with the toilet paper/paper towels thing. Get them delivered by Amazon, either get Amazon prime or just subscribe and have them delivered on a regular basis so you don't have to truck them home. With 3 kids under 5 I'm all about convenience, especially since it doesn't cost any more and I hate lugging giant boxes home when I could be filling up on fun Target decor items:)

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  143. I hear ya!! On both the household maintenance AND the foot pain. I had surgery on a joint in 2005 that plagued me for years and all I wanted to do was run. Thankfully my problem was eventually fixed, and I wish your foot the best too.

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  144. I think it's good to share the good, bad and truth. I have had plantar fasciitis, and I can attest to the fact that it is very painful and can be debilitating. I had lots of PT and found the best shoes for me are Birkenstocks. Never thought I'd be giving up cute shoes for Birkie's, but when you're in pain, you'll do anything for relief. Hang in there girl, this too shall pass!

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  145. One thing I have learned over the years when it comes to fitness and losing weight is that you have high points and low points. For the past 9 weeks I have worked out every single day except Wednesdays. I pretty much ate all natural wholesome foods. I've lost close to 20lbs and 15inches, then last week I started to feel myself hitting a low point. I ate french fries. I skipped a few days of working out. Yesterday I ate a donut but you know what? I have to remind myself I have come so far, as have you!, to even remotely feel bad about skipping some gym time or eating the french fries {or m&m's}. I have to remind myself that this is just a low point. It doesn't mean I have given up or im slumping back into my old habits, it's just that, a low point and soon the coaster will start to go up the hill again and I will reach a high point. It comes in waves. They don't call it a lifestyle change for nothing. It takes time and getting used to and there will be many many more highs and lows on the road to come :0)

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  146. You can do hard things. We know because we have seen the results of your hard work. In your home, with your family and with your weight! It can be hard to stay motivated when so many other things come into play. You have motivated many people to do many things. I just lost 7 lbs in two weeks because you showed that it can be done. Maybe that will be the motivation to help you know that after a little laying around and recuperating, you will be ready to take on the world again. Good luck!

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  147. I read your posting today and had to comment. I also had plantar fascitis several years ago and I can vouch for the awful pain. It just doesn't make sense that something so seemingly small should hurt so much. I went to a podiatrist and, after trying a lot of different things (taping, elastic bandage, etc) I had a cortisone shot in my heel. It was instant relief and felt so wonderful! The relief only lasted about 30-45 minutes before the pain returned but then I went to therapy 3xweekly for several weeks and had heat therapy, which worked! Going barefoot is a no-no but something I still do. However, one little twinge and I put my shoes with the little heel back on for several days. I hope you are able to get some relief soon, because I know how much pain you're in right now.

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  148. Girlfriend - you are SUCH an inspiration. I can't tell you how much your authenticity in this journey means to me! You are gorgeous - and always have been. This is a bump in the road, but I know that you are going to cross the finish line! Hugs, M

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  149. I had this very same problem with my foot after lots of running. I found a great way to wrap sports tape in a certain way that took most of the pain away. I too went to the doctors and got 3 cortizone shots. The first 2 didnt do much by the last one was shot right into the never and that did the trick. I don't know how to email you a link for that way of taping your foot, but if you let me know I can send it over. Hope it gets feeling better quick!

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  150. I just read your post--LOVED it! Don't worry, you'll bounce back. Just give yourself permission to take a break. I have personally had a lot of experiences with health-related issues interfering with attempts at weight-loss and it's a major pain in the backside. You have so much--and so many people--on your side, you'll achieve all your worthy goals. Take it easy on yourself and you'll rebound better than before. I just know it!!

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  151. Love that you tell it like it is and make us all remember, and be thankful for daily challenges.

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  152. Shelly,
    Wow. I love how honest you are. I love that you are real. I wish I had some amazing motivational comment but in all honesty...I think you know you have the strength to get through this, it's just so dang easy to forget that. You have worked sooo hard. You deserve every bit of happiness. Stay strong and smash the road block and laugh in it's face! It's temporary.
    We are all cheering for you!
    ps I love running high! I have also had injuries, let it heal but do it right even if it takes a little time so it doesn't resurface.

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  153. You have done such an AMAZING REMARKABLE job on your weight loss you inspire me daily! Your an amazing woman and just rememeber you arent given any more than you can handle! Take a deep breath close your door to your room scream at the top of your lungs and put that pain in check. Thanks for blogggin and helping me to realize that nothing is impossible even when you think it is !
    Keep up the good work you LOOK GREAT!!

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  154. k so i'm not sure if i'm just not supposed to comment but i'm gonna.

    i've gained 20 lbs on top of the 30 extra i was already packing around in the last 2 yrs due to stress...i TOTALLY get what you are feeling and going through. it's a hard battle that i fear people like us will battle for life...it's an addiction, just like meth or heroine. i am just going to say this...don't give up! you are amazing and all you have accomplished just makes me cry. really.

    k the foot thing...i am just going to tell you this advice. my bil and daughter have it and freezing a water bottle and then rolling your foot on it have helped both of them at least have a little respite from the pain. also my bil swears by these shoe inserts that you can buy at a running store and damn if i can remember the name of them. but if you went to a running store i bet they would know. they are about $30.

    dear girl...we are all rooting for you!!
    AND it's ok to not always be the happy camper that you usually are.:D

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  155. i had a spur in my foot when I was pregnant and no matter how much my husband massaged my foot the pain just never ceased. I feel for you, but please don't give up. You can KID!!!!!

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  156. Just want to say WAY TO GO GIRL!! You look great and are so talented. Thanks for helping a craft challenged women add sunshine and style to her home.

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  157. I feel your pain...I had terrible Plantar Fasciitis. I am an Emergency Department RN and on my feet constantly! Miss work? Can't happen. Anyway I spoke to every ortho/foot/ER doctor who would listen. Rest, NSAIDS and good shoes. Great. 2 months of severe pain after work and no better. Until I was told to get Asics sneakers. Stretching, NSAIDS and new Asics every 6 months( not a day longer) and I have not had a problem since. BTW I am not some petite little nothing..I am a BIG girl. Good luck!!!!!

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  158. Shelley, I hope your foot heals quickly. I so admire your honesty. So many people paint only the pretty pictures of life on their blogs, facebooks, ect... High five to you for keeping it real and most likely helping someone else out their. Don't give up girl, the foot thing WILL pass at some point, and you are looking GREAT! 60lbs in 8 months... that is AMAZING! Best of luck, sending lots of good vibes your way :)

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  159. You're doing great! I know how it feels to be really tired of these life things so I feel ya. But, you have worked so hard and you should be so proud. This too shall pass. Soon, your foot will heal and you will be back at it. Rootin for ya!

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  160. I hope that your foot gets better but you may have to change the running...
    I went through plantar fasciitis both feet and its been 12 years and I have had to accept that I CAN'T run. Any. More. It hasn't gotten better I just don't do as much. I went through a lot of doctors and different treatments and nothing got me back to running. I have had 2 plantar fasciotomies one on one foot and one on the other. Thinking that that would finally cure me and unfortunately it didn't. Once you get the pain controlled it's better to do low impact i.e. bike or eliptical. Hang in there I KNOW the pain and it is BAD.

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  161. I totally understand every single word you said! I'm right with you sister! I lost 60 lbs and I've lost my mojo! I've seen 10 lbs creep back on and my fat girl voice is just being so mean to me again! I thought I had beat that voice into submission, but no, she was just sleeping. I keep trying to be positive, but like you I'm tired. I'm so happy for you, and I know you will be back on track soon. You've come so far! Btw, I also suffered from the same foot pain. Someone told me to get some sketchers that have the round bottom heel. After just a few days the pain was greatly reduced and completely gone in a month! I felt like I was going to die until I put that magical shoe on. They look dumb, but I would have worn a shoebox if I knew it would help!

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  162. First I want to say how much I love your blog! But I so feel your foot pain! I felt like an eighty year old woman walking around, and one shot and daily stretching later, good as new! good luck! by the way, love your headphones!

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  163. You can do it! Reading your blog and about your weight loss and journey is helping me get past my own weight loss slump, which I've been on for about the past month...if you can do it, so can I and stuff. Stick to it, it's better than not...right?

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  164. You are adorable & an inspiration to so many! Your transformation has been amazing and you rock for working so hard to get to where you are now. I'm so sorry things are tough for you right now, but hang in there! You can do it!

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  165. I just found your blog and I love it! I have suffered from PF in the past. What really helped me was heel cups--plastic cups that you put in your shoes. I guess it cradles your heels and it really made the pain go away for me. The orthopaedic doctor gave me my first pair, but you can buy them at Wal Mart with the foot care part. Also, stretching every day seemed to help. Before I even got out of bed, I would flex my foot as much as possible, even using my other leg to stretch it. Hope this helps!

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  166. Chronic pain or injuries can be so debilitating.. and I soooo know where you're coming from on that and the weight issues. I guess I must be a little emotional today, cuz I found myself tearing up throughout this post, partially cuz of how sweet your DH is, and cuz I know how hard it is to loose weight, and the fact that I'm where you were pre-diet with no "plan" as of yet. Some days are just so hard. Wishing you all the best, I enjoy reading your posts and hearing the good/bad & ugly. It's nice to know you're not alone ya know??? Crossing my fingers with you about the foot..

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  167. I love this post! I am exactly today 3 mos into my weight loss journey and have lost 21 lbs. it is a struggle daily for me and I have to remind myself that I can only take this journey one meal and one workout at a time. My starting weight was 301 and my goal is to get down to 175. I know that's a lot of weight - but it'll happen one day! Good luck to you on your journey and I hope you don't mind if I tag along!!!

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  168. their is nothing more frustrating that genuinely wanting to workout and having the motivation and not being able to because of an stupid injury. my mom has been experiencing an awful pain in her foot as well. her's is from having a low arch and walking barefoot at the beach. She wore shoes with a heel for a few weeks, stayed off of it as much as possible, and struggled with the frustration of not being able to exercise. it's feeling better now though since she's taken care of it and she's back to her serious power walking :o)
    don't let this get in the way of your weight loss. give it some time and don't get discouraged. you've come to far to give up!

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  169. Ah Shelley, sorry you are having such a hard time...

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  170. I think all of your feelings are pretty normal! Injuries are frustrating especially something that can't just be fixed but I hope that you won't give up your looking great and I'm sure you're feeling healthier. Your girls have a long life left and you need to be around as their mother! Yeah for great husbands!!

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  171. THANK YOU for this post! I'm so glad to know I'm not the only one who struggles with this!(not so much with the foot problems (all though I sympathize with you on this one)....but I have felt similar emotions.) I think it will be a struggle for me for the rest of my life. But I keep thinking that "recognizing" this is my first step in conquering it.?? I have faith in you! But what's even better is....deep down I know YOU have faith in you too.

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  172. Wow, what a journey you've been on. I think you should be so proud of yourself and think about in a year you will look back on this time and wonder how you got through it. You are much stronger than you think or feel. Make sure you rest both your mind and body (foot) because when those are strained, like you said, everything is 100x more annoying, tiring, and frustrating. Good luck to you! You can do it!!!

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  173. I have never commented here before, but you broke my heart! I recently lost 30 pounds after 4 babies...by running. And I have struggled with PF since before I even had kids, but I can't stop running. I have never had much relief until I gave in and bought Birkenstocks (Gizehs, to be precise). I still stretch, wear splints at night, ice, etc., but it really did help; I no longer have the pain I used to, and the Gizehs are actually pretty cute (although they do show the toe nail I lost)! And PF hurts like crazy...and this from someone who had 4 babies without drugs of any kids!

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  174. Hi Shelley,

    No helpful hints from me - you don't need them.

    I know a little bit about how you feel, back problems make exercise impossible for me and I'm not your 'born skinny' type either. And, I know how annoying those "why don't you try x, y or z" comments can be.
    My sweet daughter has the same foot problem that you do and I've seen her get going on a weight loss program and be sidelined by her foot.
    Just wanted to tell you that you look beautiful and I'm sorry for your foot problems. It's hard not to give up - but, your a strong, remarkable woman who has a really special husband (like mine!) and beautiful children. You'll get through this! I FEEL ya - and I really like you! Good luck with your foot.

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  175. Been there, done that, am tired of a lot of that too. Just wanted to let you know *I GET IT!* Now go and tell that fat girl to shut the H up. We don't like her and we don't need her yapping her lips at us. You should have a AMAZING Pinterest folder on fitness and motivation to make during your foot rest! (ps...who do you hope it is? I am loving Jef more and more!) My girlfriends and I usually have a huge finale party - want to come?

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  176. FWIW, I went through the plantar fasciitis thing a few years ago and the only thing that helped was changing my footwear. I wore only Dansko for regular shoes and saucony for athletic shoes. Those two brands made a huge difference in my day to day. I NEVER went barefoot during that time. It hurt too much. After about two years the plantar fasciitis went away.

    Good Luck and hang in there with the weight loss.

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  177. Hey Shelly! I've never commented on your blog before but I read it all the time and I just had to comment on this post. Girl, its official. You can call yourself a runner! I read a lot of other running blogs and this post reads suspiciously like a runners post. Do you consider yourself a runner? You should totally sign up for a race, when your foot gets better of course, but just thinking about a race could be just what you need to find motivation to keep going. Almost every running blog I have read has a time when the runner was down and out with an injury and they have a post almost exactly like one you posted. I myself was down and out for six weeks from knee surgery and not being able to run was not good. Runners tend to identify themselves by their running and if they aren't doing it then who are they? They often come to the conclusion that running is just something they do not who they are. Don't let not being able to run stop you! A lot runners have a small set back and this is just a little bump. You'll be back to running before you know it! You are awesome:)

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  178. Wow... I so appreciate all the honesty. And hopefully you did/do feel better after writing all of that. I think we can all relate to that tired feeling - I feel like the breakdown of emotions hits me every few months. I get sooo overwhelmed with the day to day & mundane, and every once in a while, I just have to cry & get it out & release the tension. I LOVE that Cason got you the hot pink awesome ear buds, I think those type of surprises are the best!!! I hope you can get your foot pain resolved quickly and have a FABULOUS week! Hugs :o)

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  179. Just wanted to say I find your weight loss journey I spring, as I'm still the girl in the grey shirt. I have PF, and after an appointment where the dr talked about inserts and living with it, the nurse told a teary me to buy a pair do Dansko shoes. I felt relief within days, and haven't worn another brand in over a year. I did buy a pair if New Balance running shoes, and the clerk told me some gym shoes were better for PF than others.

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  180. thanks for your transparency...i will keep you in my prayers!

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  181. I so know how you feel about sore feet. I have high arches so if i am on my feet to long without a good fitting tennis shoe and arch support my feet are so sore, achy and I can't sleep at night. It will last a few days before they are better. Hang in there it will all come together soon!!

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  182. I'm so sorry about your foot. My husband had that condition and it took a lot of resting it and wearing the right shoes to get better. I've learned that sometimes our bodies break down in an attempt to slow us down or make us more aware of what's happening around us. I hope that your are able to keep up the momentum you've created in becoming more healthy. Thank you for sharing as I've been feeling frustrated with life as well lately.

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  183. I'm crossing my fingers for you and hoping for a quick recovery. I feel your pain I could bore you with my story but I wont. I will say after exercising for years and knowing the only way for me to keep my weight off is by exercise my body has defeated me. Unlike you I have yet to go to the doctor but a month ago my left hip started to really hurt after i went running. I'm also not a fan of running but for some reason I now crave it. So on Monday I decided to give it a try I ran for a good two miles. Well needless to say I couldn't walk by the end of the night. The next day I was limping everywhere I went. Getting old is a you know what and for some reason my body just isn't doing what I want it to do. I have to remind myself not to be so hard on myself and to let myself heal. You must do the same. You have come so far and it sounds like you will not let yourself be that girl in gray again. This is a minor setback but you will recover and once your foot recovers you will be able to get back to exercising. I'm not sure why I wrote all that but it sure is therapeutic to type out your feelings.

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  184. You are an amazing person and I'm sure once your foot is better, you will get back to your routine. At least you've started, I know I have to lose weight(at least 80 lbs.) and I just can't seem to get motivated. The funniest thing is I don't know why. I've joined the gym, was good for a while, then stopped going. I work, and do things around the house and yard. I do for everyone else but I've forgotten about me. That foot problem is not uncommon, I don't know what causes it but I've heard several people say they've suffered from it. I hope you find out for sure what it is so that you can get on the road to recovery. You have a wonderful husband and your daughters are darling. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers :)

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  185. Plantar Fascitis HURTS! I think it is so amazing how committed and how hard you are working, Shelley. Way to go. I also think it is incredibly amazing how hard you work at being (and staying) positive. Even though I think this post was supposed to be a bit of venting, it still was very uplifting and inspiring. You are amazing. Keep it up!

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  186. Hey Lady,
    I just wanted to give you a little inspiration secret from some great books by Janice Taylor.
    The books are Our lady of Weightloss and All is forgiven, Move On.
    Basically, things are not so great now and your body is telling you to slow down so it can heal (I trained for two 1/2 marathons and got that STupiD Fasciiatis as well and it finally went away after a year of working through it, around it, under it and between it).
    You aren't really feeling the change in routine but hey maybe this is all part of the journey. So getting upset maybe backsliding is not capsizing ALL is forgiven and move on. Tell that fgv (fat girl voice) to move on you've got stuff to do and changes to make.
    Good Luck,
    Julie M.

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  187. Hey Shelly-I normally am just a blog stalker, but I totally get where you are coming from! I found out last year after spending a month in the hospital from an infection from my c- section, that I had a bone spur. It felt like I had a bruised heel, I limped all the time, I hated getting out of bed in the morning because I knew it was going to hurt. My doctor sent me to physical therapy for it. I was skeptical-- pt for a bone spur, really? But it really worked wonders! I still have bad days ( mostly my fault for not wearing good shoes, or shoes at all for that matter, or slacking on my exercises.) keep looking for the answers you need. You'll find them. Thanks for letting me be part of your life. You are an inspiration!

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  188. U got this Shelly! :) Enjoy the break and then get ready for round 2.

    Ps..... Where did u find that awesome blue/white stripe blanket in the last pic?!

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  189. My favorite quote for times like this: "When God closes one door, he opens another. But it's h*ll in the hallway." It's the during those "in between" times that we learn the most about ourselves and what we have in us to keep going. You WILL be back to your happy place, or you WILL find a new one that will be just as good (because, think about it, you never would have thought that on a treadmill would have been your happy place a year ago, would you?). You are doing AWESOME and are an inspiration to many! Thanks so much for putting yourself out there and sharing your WHOLE journey!!

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  190. A great quote for times like this: "When God closes one door, he opens another. But it's h*ll in the hallway." You know a door, ANY door, will open, but the hallway is just not a fun place to be! It's during these "in between" times that we learn the most about ourselves and what we have in us to keep going. You WILL get back to your happy place, or you WILL find a new one that will be just as good (because, face it, I bet "on a treadmill" wasn't your happy place a year ago!). You are doing GREAT and you are an inspiration to many. Thank you so much for sharing ALL aspects of your entire journey!

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  191. Three steps forward, one step back still gets you two steps closer ...dont be hard on yourself, that will just increase the negative girl that that pretty little head of yours ... YOU CAN DO IT - be kind to yourself first ..then get out and kick some ass!!
    On a side note, my hubby had Plantar Fascitis 6 months ago - in full force starting 2 months before he was running a tough mudder ..he was getting very upset - not being able to run , but with a anti inflam pill and a brace EVERY night on his foot - it did get better ... and her ran his 13 mile race ... Stick with it - do something - bike , sit ups, pilates ... something to get that excercise HIGH ..

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  192. Plantar Fasciitis sucks! Have you ever tried getting a cortisone shot? I got one for my PF and stayed pain free for a few years and I didn't have to put my running on hold. Let me tell you though, that shot HURTS! But the one minute of pain you feel is SO worth it!

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  193. Just take it one day at a time...

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  194. ouch! Hoping it all gets better real soon. Don't fall off the wagon, but don't beat yourself up either. It's HARD, real hard to do what you've done. You've come a long way baby!
    wishing you all the best, stay strong, but let your foot heal.
    gail

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  195. Oh Shelley! I am so sorry you are in so much pain! This too will pass! Hang in there! You are an inspiration to me and so many! You can do it! Sending hugs and lots of prayers your way!

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  196. i have had the dreaded plantar fasciitis and it is POO. have you tried the night splints? those helped me SO much. it keeps your foot completely flexed all through the night and it did wonders for me! good luck!

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  197. I too suffered majorly from heel pain and spent tons of money trying to solve the pain so that I could quite hobbling around. I finally just gave up completely and was super frustrated. While trying to solve shoulder pain, I started going to the chiropractor. I mentioned to him that my feet were bothering. He worked several times realigning my knees and ankles and the pain eased immensly. Now, almost a year later, I am pain free and finally back to wearing cute shoes again with no issues! Huge considering I'm a teacher and on my feet almost all day!

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  198. I have it as well on my left foot. My podiatrist told me to NEVER be without shoes. Even at night when going to the bathroom. I bought New Balance per her request. I got the steroid shot *helped a bit*, but she told me that she wears crocs at home. I started wearing my crocs all day at home and WOW what a difference. Most times they feel better than my $150 New Balance shoes. Hope ya find some relief soon!

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