Oh, well hello there old friends!
For those of you who were wondering (and asking questions on Instagram); no, I haven't quit blogging... well, completely anyway. ha!
Truth be told, I was (and still sorta am) going through an identity crisis/burnout phase with blogging... and have been for a while.
I hate to just cut to the chase, but here's the deal:I miss posting about day to day stuff and feelings like I used to. Believe it or not, it's the whole reason I started blogging in the first place. I know I'm gonna sound like a total blogging Granny when I say this, but remember the simpler times? You know, before Pinterest, the great Facebook explosion happened, and social media-money-making-crazies ever really existed? When people actually READ blog posts, instead of just skimming through them quickly, looking for the "next big/best/cool thing" and pretty pin-able image?
I miss journaling way too many pictures of my kiddos, talking about trips we take as a family, sharing my ridiculous thoughts about reasons why brown sugar tastes better than white in Cream of Wheat, and small, silly projects that would now probably never be Pinterest worthy at all (gasp!).Don't get me wrong, I LOVE working with other bloggers and amazing companies, that will never change, but the crazy amount of pressure, emails and demand to have a specific response to a post or number of repinned images, likes or shares when just simply trying to write about something I feel strongly about... has slowly killed my passion for blogging AND reading others' blogs.
So, I took a break.
I stepped away and pried my icy-cold fingers (no really, it was super cold that day and my digits were freezing because my office is in the basement) from my desktop keyboard, and have loved EVERY minute of it since.
shirt from The Printed Palette
A big ol' long vacation from the projects, emails, the posting, the deadlines... and the worry that if I didn't have something new, completely original and super-awesome up on my blog EACH week, somehow the internet would spontaneously combust!
See how dumb that sounds?
Old Town San Diego
Like I said before in this post:
"I've determined that it's easy for me to be the girl with lots on my plate, mind and to-do list; but not-so-easy to be the one who says "no" to people or "thanks, but no thanks" when opportunities arise. While progression in life is a must, the pace at which you choose to take it can either help you grow, or quickly have you putting into perspective what and who, matters the most."
Reality was, I felt like I had totally lost sight of what things were THE MOST important (including myself), and when I realized this, I was so sad that it had taken me this long to figure it out.
Old Town San Diego
It was never about not being a good mom, wife or person... but more about how I approached and cherished each moment while I was actively playing all of those roles.
I'm so happy that I had the prompting to step back and reevaluate what's actually significant in the day-to-day life I'd been living, and well... what isn't!
It's crazy how long you can go not realizing how much you've truly missed, simply because your mind is constantly overwhelmed with unnecessary worry, projects, stress, social media bombardment and even your own high expectations to be whatever it is that you "think" you need to be.
Oceanside Beach, CA
These past few months have been some of the most eye-opening for me, maybe ever. Things will definitely change around the blog from here on out, and while I'm still really excited to share the occasional fun project and design thoughts we may have, I'm about a 100 times more thrilled to get back to the excessive everyday-event-type picture sharing and writing that I have missed so much!
I'm quickly grasping that in my stillness, I'm able to make more time in my life for others; something that I've not been very good at doing, because of how busy I'd become and made myself. In return, this is enriching my life so much more than I ever thought it could.
It probably hit me the hardest while at my dear, sweet step-Grandmother Wini's funeral, that when I am done here on this earth, and get a chance to look back on a life well-lived, I want it to be just that- WELL-lived!, and not scattered with regret or mundane, silly things, that really don't matter all that much.
Even though picture taking, storytelling and documenting life, along with constantly finding ways to beautify my surroundings is something I'll NEVER be able to stop - because it's genuinely my passion... just know that this year especially, I will be saying "no" a LOT, sitting in front of my computer less, and spending WAY MORE time caring about and cultivating relationships with my Savior, family and few close friends, than I will with any new projects, crafts, room designs or blog posts.