When Cason and I got married, we were lucky enough to be gifted one of his parents old Christmas trees. It's a great tree, 8ft tall, beautiful... and BIG. I swear that sucker is about 5 feet wide. Well, after our decision to move Cason's big ol' lovely piano into our front room earlier this year, we literally had no room for that huge, gifted Christmas tree. So... I started looking for another one (taller, skinnier and maybe even frosted or flocked) that we could use in this new space, and thought about how awesome it would be to have TWO amazing trees to choose from for Christmas each year!
Fast forward 3 weeks later, and I'm standing in the middle of the Tai Pan Christmas tree section, crying my eyes out. Why? Because for the past 21 days I had been researching and shopping for that "perfect second tree" with absolutely no luck. Sure, my perfect tree existed, but only at the pretty penny of about $580-$750!!! There was NO WAY I was going to spend that much, even if I DID have the money.
Call me a brat, call me tired, out of energy and totally OVER having sick kids for the past 2 out of three weeks that I speak of above, (which is probably why the crying really ensued)... but YES, I let my obsession with decorating, and the pressures of what people would think in blog world COMPLETELY overshadow the fact that even though (for me) Christmas decorating is ALL about the tree - it TOTALLY WASN'T at the same time!!!
As I drove home that night, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Why should it matter to anyone but me and my family what my tree looks like? What do people do who can't fit the "tree of their dreams" into their tiny apartments or smaller budgets? Have you really lost sight of what this whole holiday is all about?
This made me cry a little more... and then I went to Target (which always makes me feel better, ha!), used an old gift card that I had been saving, and bought this little ensemble.
Yup... a tabletop Christmas tree, a cute bucket to put it in and even two ruffly curtain panels that I ironed out and rigged up on my little round table with some pins, to make it look like I had a layered ruffly tree skirt underneath it all.
ruffle curtain panels, tree & bucket from Target
The next day I made a few trips to gather up some pretty, new embellishments, so I could pair them with a few we already had, and the twins and I got to work.
white pompom garland + metallic bursts - Michaels, disco ball ornaments - Tai Pan, star tree topper - Target
Pillow - Target 2012
Usually our tree and present wrapping takes DAYS, but this year... just a quick Wednesday afternoon!
I LOVED it. Who knew?
Sure our tree is a little small, a lot less fancily flocked and maybe even a little strange looking for this space... but guess what? It's JUST A TREE! Only a SYMBOL of what our family has come to love and cherish, about this time of year.
It also now represents a story, a humbling memory and a big learning moment for me. Maybe I'll get a chance to snag that freakishly fancy, flocked, ginormous tree I was dreaming of, at a big clearance sale after the holidays are over, for next year... and maybe I won't. At this point, it doesn't matter. All I know is that I'm thrilled that Christmas is almost here, my decorating in WHOLE only took me about 2 days of errands and staging, and now, I can just sit back, enjoy, and take it all in.
No more drama, no stress, and definitely a lot less mess :)